PART I.
so about 3 or 4 years ago i had one of these things but i ended up forgetting about it pretty quick. lately i figure that i have a lot of things on my mind and it would be nice to just have something to write down on my thoughts. so i think its time i give this thing another chance. maybe i will actually keep up with this, this time. i dont know. we will see. but yeah i dunno. ive already run out of things to say. but maybe because im preoccupied.
PART II.
so there were just a few more things i wanted to add before i completely ended this entry. just a few things that crossed my mind. today is march 4th which just occurred to me that it is the 3 year anniversary of chris marshall's death. i cant believe its been that long already and i wanted to make it known that he is in my thoughts and my prayers go out to him and his entire family. i know he was a wonderful individual and he will never be forgotten.
on a brighter note, today was actually a really good day. i was able to finally see becca [who happens to be my best friend from high school] and it was really refreshing. considering we go to the same college and she lives two floors below we actually never ever ever get to see each other so it was nice to catch up on things. lately ive been kinda feeling as if we have been going our separate ways but i think thats just reality kicking in. we are just getting busy with school and stuff and cant really find a whole lot of time to do the things that we used to. thats actually the part of me that makes me really miss high school. i just felt so much closer. but i hope she just knows that to this day she remains my absolute best friend...more like my sister...despite the fact that we are growing up and things are changing. i love her so much and i just hope she really knows that. this friday we are actually gonna go out into the city and i am sooo excited for that. it'll be like old times. its nice to reminisce every once in awhile. sometimes im still scared to grow up. sometimes im afraid of drastic change in my life. even tho i know the future holds great things for me. tons of new beginnings.
on a final note: i got a letter in the mail today. which was a nice surprise considering i never get mail. but it was from lila and hannah which even surprised me more. unfortunately i dont get to see them as often as i did but its just so nice to know that im still in their thoughts and they havent forgotten about me. because sometimes i fear that one day i will just be a little memory that will eventually vanish. but those two showed me love and they have grown to be a part me. and i do consider them family. i love that entire family. wes, lila, nicholas, christopher, and hannah. i love them all. i just hope they are all doing well. im gonna start writing a letter back to them now.
i really miss them all. and all the memories. and smiles. and laughs. everything.
PART III.
for some reason im having a lot of trouble concentrating on homework tonight and i dont exactly know why. oh well. i miss aaron a lot. i really believe he helps take some of my stress away but living in different cities its a bit difficult. oh well. we learn how to cope with it really well. only 3 more days. i need the weekend to get here. and i really need to get working on this essay. ill probably just half ass it. i know i shouldnt but im just not it the mood. plus its only a draft so its alright.
im really liking this whole blog thing. its nice to get my thoughts out. love it.
